mid night blogging

I'm actually supposed to be studying but my emoing mind really doesn't want to help me recall anything . Every time I look at a case I begin to think of that something that have been frustrating me.
They say that normally an emo person will blog at midnight or pass that time because it is most quiet and best time to dump frustrations. I personally believe that is also the time that the spiritual attack is the highest on such people, but yet time needed to be spend with God or someone is most needed at that hour. Oh well, after a challenging conversation with God, I decided and have came out with my judgment for the night.
In law, Common law that is, which is also case law, the judge interprets the law, and in a away, also created the law because they have the power to decide on the law, as well as to overrule certain law, though depending on the origins of the law. The main point here is deciding on the law. When the law is decided, there is 2 things we must know that the judges go by.
1) the ratio decidendi : this is what is binding. this is precedent in itself. It must be followed by lower courts strictly. Only the higher courts or parliament can overrule this one.
2) the obiter dicta: this is the reasoning the judges give for the ratio. It is not binding, does not need to be followed, but has high persuasive authority in any case, especially on lower courts. Need not be followed by anyone though.
3)per incuriam : this is when the law is decided wrongly. It's also another way of the judges saying opps. I made a mistake
Our christian walk. When we read the bible. Is there such thing as "it depends on how we interpret it"? and "people have different ways of reading Gods word, so if your thinking contradicts with one another, its ok. Just try to accept the other guys thoughts."?
It's both rubbish. When did God's law have so many standards of all a sudden that everyone can just decide to interpret it in whatever way we want? This is binding authority you are talking about send from heaven in the form of a book to us, and you are going round interpreting it in ways that you think suits you? Why, we do know God is a kind God, and also always caring to everyone's situations, but his law is perfect, made for people to understand in his light, not our own understanding to interpret and decide to our liking. You think what, the bible is a news paper you can buy from the super market? Very funny isn't it?
God said in his word, heaven and earth will fade, but his words remains the same. this sounds familiar doesn't it? Goes to demonstrate how much power is there in his words. Definitely not something for you to take to liking however you like and love to read it does it? It's an honor to read his word and understand it IN HIS LIGHT!! DON'T DO ANYMORE STUPID THING BY INTERPRETING IT THE WAY YOU LIKE IT! GOD'S WORD IS MORE PRECIOUS THEN HONEY!AND IT DOESN'T TAKE SCHOLARS TO SEE THAT!
In court, you know what happens when the judge misinterprets the law? Especially the higher up judges? The lower ones cannot touch it. And due to the retrospective nature of law, you cannot go round overruling everything said by the judges either because that in itself creates uncertainty in the law. Vice visa for Gods word. You interpret it wrongly for a young christian. He is going to treat that as binding precedent for the rest of his life. It's a funny thing how we go round so easily teaching about Gods word without realizing how much responsibility is there in it. If you never read it, what gives YOU the right to talk about it?

My lecturers house.

I guess that's why they say some lecturers are crazy. This crazy lecturer that keeps coming to class and address us first thing first.
:'Now, I gave you a few cases the other week( 20 cases) Did you read them? You better have. I will ask wan you know. If you cannot answer out of my class you go. did you read? Good luck to you.
Turns out he has a really large house. Well, his house not that big, but a really large freehold land he has. Yes ,big enough to have monkey raids, snake entry daily, musangs and squirrel daily visitations, Even the irregular appearance of wild boars. So many of the external guest that he keeps a gun in the house.
New things I found out about him. He has this crazy liquor in his house called mou tai. 35% alcohol. It's so hot it burns the throat. But it will be good to drink when having flu or something like that. He is also very proud of it. first thing first is he brought it out for us to drink.
He is crazy over his drums. Don't like people touching it. So, he bought 2 sets, 1 for other people especially young children to play, the other is for himself.
15 Dogs in his house. Most are sick dogs, then he attended to them and nurse them back to health, now they are hyper as ever.
Judging from the way he talks and his house, he is a very religious man.
Lastly, Is crazy law books collection. A heap of them. Now what I expected. But yea. 1 book cost 20k.

insanity

I wonder if I'm insane. There is this saying that if you keep repeating the same mistake over and over again, than that is insanity. In law, insanity is what is used to describe a person if he is termed an unreasonable man. Once again I arrived back at the same question. What is my direction this time, why am I going this way. The funny thing about me is I think I have learned but true actual fact, I realized I didn't. I came back to the same mistake did the same thing in the same way. Whats better, I know my mistake, vowed not to do it again. Then come back the next moment and do it.
You know. I pray. I asked for discipline. I made conscious effort to get my things done. The next moment I see my old self taking over. And this is just one example.
I was told the other day I am thinking, more like perceiving or under valuing other people. Not once but a few times. I guess its true. That I cannot handle failure, and I expect a lot of anyone. How do other people expect nothing from someone when they work with them.
I see myself becoming an emotionless monster at the end of the day. Well, is it that bad? Well. What do the readers think?

Crisis in a warhead

The new semester has already started for a month and I'm still struggling with the same old problem. Feels like nothing of me have change from last year to now besides knowing a bit more into law and stuff.
I still feel as impulsive as I was last year. I still hate losing and can't take failure just like how I did in last year. Procrastination and laziness still fills my life style. I feel like every time I think I have gotten somewhere in life, I turn back and realized I just put on my shoes, only to take it off.
I look ahead and calculate the possibilities and stuffs I need to go through. Looks like another tiring year. What am I lacking that makes my road looks so hard feels so hard but seems easy to others? No matter how I plan something unforeseen will turn up and mess up everything nicely. That's not really the problem. The problem is more like did I made a mistake somewhere? Did I made a wrong move in getting so involved in CF? Or over involved in social areas?
I lack time to do the things I would love to do and plan to do. To a certain extend, I do sometimes feel that the people around me cannot understand what kinda position I have gotten myself in and expects a lot of me especially to conform to them. What should I do to lower the expectations? Or are high expectations that goes beyond what I'm capable of good to stick to me?
Everyone have plans. I won't want to judge if they are good or bad, but I will wish I be left out of all the plans that people around me can think of. Not that I love being alone and enjoy the silence of solitude. But there are times I wish that no solicitude be given to me. No care or concern wanted here now. Whats the problem? having difficultly trying to understand that I'm in frustration and pain now? Not like it's me being happy and sunny everyday. Emo is a big part of my lifestyle too and if you are not used to it then good luck to you.
You want me to give you attention when I'm asking for space. You want me to give concern when I'm trying to avoid the face of men to be alone. You expect me to be carefree when I'm trying to focus on my issues. I asked for time yet you don't want to give me any. Expecting my warmth when I'm in a down turn. Looking at me for leadership and initiative when I'm drained of both. I'm not God and I am a fallen.
Worship coordinator is difficult already so don't throw your responsibilities around. Everyone's tired. Everyone's drained. Everyone's burn out. Stop looking at yourself as the only one suffering and get a hold of yourself. This boat isn't down yet, and we are all still working on it doing our part. If you continue going on like that you might demotivate the entire army behind you.
The intention you portray to defy the leadership is too obvious. Look here if you( you know who you are)reading this. I don't care what status you have in church and with people. What I do know is this is what you started by shaking the top branch. Now the bottom branches are all against you and you are running away only to do more damage next round. I don't hate you, but I'm very frustrated and disappointed with you. If you are to read this, I don't intend to mend back our relationship if you get worked up by it. You yourself said that I can correct you as much as you can correct me. Going round ripping at other leadership just because you are not the one is a great idea isn't it? I might be impressed you know. I hate maintaining suspicious critical minds of others. So much for learning diplomacy. Now I know why camping is such a temptation.

The new era in my room

A while since I last blog. To a certain extend it makes me wonder if my blog is dead. Dun worry. I got reason wan. So happens there is this senior of mine.. Haha. A friend too and so happens to be the secretary of INTI's CF. So with the excuse of wanting to see the memos, proposals,event reviews and event drafts completed, I feel obligated to lend him my dear labbie for a short while. Well. it turns out to be an obligation to help him since he is helping me with my studies also. ><. So for now. quite a number of nights he will be using my labbie.
I now officially have 4 days with 8 am classes.@@. At least there is a compensation, my Thursdays have no classes. My Mondays blues is going to be big time Mondays blue.. 2 hours Criminal Law. If reading the case law does not kill, Aru will. Something that happened in class.
Aru: Jonathan, did you read the case of Smith.
ME: I could not find the case sir
Aru: don't tell me whether you managed to find or not, did you read the case.
Me: no sir
Aru: you didn't read the case. Well then good luck to you

scene 2
Aru: miss zhang, tell me about diminish responsibility
Yuan Yuan: (keeps quiet)
Aru: why are you keeping quiet? I'm talking to you la. what is diminish responsibility?
Yuan Yuan: (still keeps quiet)
Aru:Why are you in my class. We don't need people like you in my class you know. I dun know why are you still sitting there

scene 3
Aru: you all have no time to eat you know. you should be reading in the libray you know. if you have time to eat dinner and lunch then you are not a degree student. you must rise up to the standard you know. The DEGREE standard. You must read READ READ.

Scene 4
Aru : helen, do you think I'm a kerling
helen: no
Aru: oh but you think I'm a kerling Kui!!! Oh, now I'm a kerling and a Kui!!! (puts hand over mouth and stares shock.
Helen: .........(kena stun)

Scene 5
Aru: this Malaysian system is a rubbish system you know.
what is rubbish system? Rubbish system is like this, see the rubbish bin? I throw anything it accepts. Malaysian system is like that. I give you anything you accept. thats the failure of the Malaysian system la. they don't teach logic and train critical thinking la. So what they produce with the rubbish system? they produce rubbish.

Scene 6
Aru:
ok take down this case of Hyam, Defendent,
( all rights)
Aru: (spells out) I W I L L R E A D I T M Y S E L F

Scene 7
Aru: Micheal, did you read my case
(before he can respond
Aru: you didn't read my case, Good luck to you

or

Aru : Micheal, did you read my case, you read my case, thank you very much

Arus favorite words

Good luck to you

Tong Tong Chiang

Liao

Did you read my case

Defendant

you know.

I have a lovely lecturer for criminal. and that's just criminal. My ELS is another wonderful creation of God

starting the new sem

Actually not easy this year.
Thank God actually that the first week does not have compulsory attendance or I would have added 1 to my score. I cannot understand why I'm the only one affected by flu and sore throat on my first day. Haha. Not too bad. Aru's classes have all ended for now. No more 'good luck to you' and 'liao' for me for the time being. Amuses me he does by coming in on the first day all pleasant and happy. But forgetting everything under the sun even his name tag and to prepare lessons for us which is so unlike him.
But on the other hand, when he came prepared today, he reformatted back to the old Aru again. Might be the only lecturer to scare day light out of everyone this time. Then again, if anything happens, this is the only lecturer who will go all out to defend our rights even to the extend of going hard against the board. Probably because he is a politician in the oppositions team.
I missed a class due to my health. I guess my parents are right. My immunity is indeed weakening. Or am I still not used to my environment? OO.
My time table says 6 subjects. 8 am starts class on almost every single day. Looks like it's either I pray that the time table switch, or look like a zombie everyday. I guess it will be the later. Haiii. No more late night supper for me. @@